'Hear My Cry'

How my soul just ache when I'm led to temptation
ashamed and disappointment flooding all over my vein
to you I'm deeply sorry, your child has sinned once more
each days goes by it doesn't seem to get better
I feel smaller, shrinking down by size.
not worthy to call your name, though this is an emergency
I am lost and unsaved.. call me home oh lord for I have no power.
I can't do this alone.. I am to be led back home.
this is me, all of me...hear my cry father.. don't forsake me
I need you now more than ever, I need you always even when I'm not myself.

Feat. Deviation

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'Use Me'

Comfort me and love me to no end.
I long for peace and glory only in your name.
shattered heart, broken to pieces, left alone not to be mend
carry me to your table, please give me some hope..
I want to live.. to glorify your name
this is what I want, this is what I need..
use me in any way you can, keep loving me oh god!

Feat. Deviation

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'For you are..'

For I have sinned, you still come and love me
For I have sinned, you still hear my prayer
For I have sinned, You care for me in abundance
For I have sinned, your glory still lives in me
For I have sinned, you are there to catch my fall
For you are god, and I just a lone soul who needs your care.

Feat.Deviation

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Sept. 25, 2009
-Gita

.Grace by you shown me the right path.
.Abusive of it, does come with a price.
.I fall with everything I've thought was dead.
.you shown me the light when I fought it so hard.
.appreciate you, love you with every single fiber of my being.
.you're my one and only God, You see me when I don't see you.
.Given me Grace, shown me the path, leading me to LIGHT.

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---Drunken Love
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I'm lost in your eyes, thought, or possibly dreams.
twisted head, hurting , entering the very corners of my heart
Dwell, i cry in my sleeps, your name surfacing my every thoughts
I'm drunk past the point of redemption, shocking my body from head to toe
make me your queen, fly me over to the moon. name a star for me and keep me for yourself.
draw me how much you love me, serenate me to my sleep, bring me back from the dead.
let me drink every part of you, taste you, have you all to myself,
...longing for your love is what I thirst the most.

---the one that got away
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disappearing through moonless night
left in despair, no thoughts left inside
you will always be the greatest
every single thing you possess..
now buried silently in my heart
nothing else matters, no else exist
forgive my ungrateful soul
for no sound can excite it anymore...

your shadow, it's forever glimmering in my eyes
in this lonely night.. I sit to ponder about you and I
I've come to my senses, your very existence is no longer present
that love is carved boldly in my heart.. believing you're now gone,
hardening my soul.. stabbing my heart nonstop.


---denial
inspired by [link]

longing for you is unbearable.
hating you seems to be impossible.
ignoring the truth can't possibly be done.
hiding the truth with laughter hurts even more.

hate me for it, I can't stop what I feel.
look me in the eyes and tell me you despise me,
but love me in secret, when you are lonely at night...

my love is for you to keep, not to destroy.
I feel you in every single of my fiber being.
looking at you, I'm ashamed of myself,
you're not mine to hold, to kiss or to love...
now take me back to the start! where it all started...
when you were never present, buried inside my heart.



----never will
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leaving seems to be the hardest thing.
walking away from you, it's something I'm used to doing.
when you're with her, it's as if I'm non existence.
In the background only to watch and apprehend reality

it hurts to see you hold her dearly ...
ignoring my presence, deception written on your face.
i'd love for you to call me baby, easy my pain even just for one time.
is this how it should be? an unrequited love for me?
I leave now, leave you in peace. don't think of me and my pathetic self.
I'm not for you, never was,never will.

I'm down on my knee, hunger for a thirst of your unknown soul.
that soul cries out to me, calling me in different way possible to ruin me.
such soul I cannot comprehend, where does it come from?
Is it real? its creation beyond perfection, soothes me from head to toe.
call me once again, dry out my conscious, perfect in itself, I seem to ache for more.

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Time Forgets. heart does not forget. scarred for life.
better in time. take refuge it does not last. look out for more heartbreaks.
the right one won't come about.pray that it will pass. pray so content will surface in time.
hope for something better. joy and happiness is life's brand of heroin.

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I call you by your first name, you answer by desperately leaving me.
I show you how I feel, you answer by Ignoring me.
I comfort your broken heart, you butchered my heart to pieces.
I loathe your presence forevermore, only for this once do leave me in peace once more.

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she failed to receive you. animosity rising failing every sane feelings in her.
cool her down by that very same dose of happiness. leave her be, joy she longs for her time.
conquer her heart, it needs to be tame down. pull her down from reaching her highest ground.
sanity ...sanity... sanity, it doesn't just come about, bring it back to her, she needs to stay alive.

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Rainy days, I crave for more.
water drop, color my world.
dark clouds, keep me warm.
thunder and wind, show me the light.
lighting strikes for I am lost in thought.

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satisfying his need was his number one virtue.
finding out the answer alone liberated his feelings.
forgiveness was something he couldn't apprehend alone.
searching for his answers in the wild was rewarding to his soul.
death was vital for it did not stop him therefore made him stronger.
content in himself was found in troubled distraught.
loving life in nature healed all his final wounds.


-Gita 10-17-08

this unfailing thoughts that still lingers in her...shall she weep about it once more?

seeing you through her unwanted blurry mirror, only to find hidden feelings surfacing only to shatter about it meaninglessly...

Have she found you? ....
the path that she's chosen was vital to her own helpless feelings.

did going about it quickly make it all not worthwhile?..Ignoring all her thoughts made her so denyingly breakable. that wittiness she once longed for oozes in triumphant; flying yet so far unreached to the touch...

tell her now oh great one! where does she go about finding this indescribable reward ?

-Gita